Sometimes I feel like I am cursed, and sometimes I feel I AM THE CURSE~
Pain is not the problem, nobody acknowledging your pain is the problem, and by mean nobody I didn’t mean a bunch of people crying out loud for you, I meant; not a single person in this whole big goddamned world… is able to depict what is wrong with your mind, and how painful is it for you to carry on this fake life of yours and trying not to portray the damage done, making it look like just fine and not taking it up with those people involved; because they cannot grab the essence of hurt you’ve been through and they are never going to take responsibility for it, so what you do in return, you carry on living, with that heavy heart of yours, with those unbreakable feelings that are always going to mess with your sentiments.
And slowly but gradually you learn, you learn to live with it because you are one of those cursed individuals that are ” The Collateral Damage” of this society, the people on the sidelines, who were never the main leads of their lives, driven and carried away by the actions of others, defined or demolished by people representing them, and with time passing by, every fraction of your entity being shattered, you are left with ‘Nothingness‘ and with that compromised individuality; you are no longer serving the purpose of being human, you are just a living creature, not more than a dead cell.
And you know what? even if the table turns and they could understand the catastrophic pain they caused, and offer me an apology, I will not be needing it, because I don’t need an apology now, I need a WAY OUT!
Take a good look in the mirror and let me know, are you a collateral damage too?
